Sunday, 5 March 2017

Life of An IFS Probationer... A Traveller Within

Its been long since i wrote something. Let me get back to something which i love doing...Expressing Myself  and this time its about my IFS Training @ IGNFA!

IFS training encompasses a very exhaustive and elaborate 16.5 month long of Travel and Touring. When u visit more than 20+ states , 50+ Cities, Innumerable Places of Heritage, Forests, Forts, National Parks,Temples,Monasteries,Architectural Sites, Natural Wonders etc etc., all in a span of just One-Year Odd, it demands a book or two to be written to narrate the Stories of Touring, Travel and Fun. However, for the lack of space n time, i am writing this very brief blog post to Cover the Majority of Places and Appreciate the Uniqueness that this Diverse Nation has in Store at every place we set our foot on. This is more of a Tour Guide for Must Visit Places in India for a traveller within You.

Unlike the trainings of some other Civil Services which happen in Sandwich pattern, IFS training happens for a 16.5 month period at a stretch, after the 3.5 month Foundation Course in LBSNAA. However, it is unfortunate that there is very less information available online regarding the Tours and Trainings we receive as IFS Probationers at the National Forest Academy. Training at Academy is a fascinating Journey, and when i say Journey, I literally Mean it too.. :D...This post would give you insights into almost all the Tours i did till now as a Probationer.

Sunday, 4 September 2016

IFS Job Profile : A bird’s eye view for an aspirant

Many Aspirants asked me to write a post on "What" is the exact Job Profile of an IFS officer, the Scope of his Work, the Oppurtunities etc., My Seniors have put in some effort in writing a blog post on the same topic. So i take the liberty of Copy-Pasting the same in the interest of the future aspirants, with due acknowledgment to 2014 batch of IFS.

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Introduction
Indian Forest Service (IFS) is amongst the most prestigious services of our country and is one of the three All India Services, the other two being Indian Administrative Service and Indian Police Service. It was constituted in the year 1966 under the All India Services Act, 1951 by the Government of India for scientific management of its forests. Prior to that, the British had constituted Imperial Forest Service in 1867 which functioned under the Federal Government until ‘Forestry’ was transferred to the “Provincial List” by the Government of India Act, 1935, and subsequent recruitment to the Imperial Forest Service were discontinued.
The main mandate of the service is the implementation of the National Forest Policy which envisages scientific management of forests and to exploit them on a sustained basis for primary timber products, among other things. Since 1935, the management of the forests remained in the hands of the Provincial Governments and even today the Forest Departments are managing the forests of the country under the respective State Governments.

Why IFS?

Monday, 23 May 2016

Kanasar...Chakrata... Forests and their Wildnerness...

               Its been quite a while since i blogged here. Blogging alwayz gives me that chance to sit alone and think about my life. The Training @IGNFA has been pretty interesting with loads of Travelling and Exploring the nature and wilderness of Forests all along. Its been already 5months here in the academy, yet we covered only One part of India...West India tour which covered states of Rangeen Rajasthan n Vibrant Gujarat...Too many memories to share.. Lot more touring to Come.. Lot more life to live... :D

Tuesday, 8 December 2015

At the Finishing Line of the Foundation Course(FC)....

Its been long since i blogged..Life has moved miles ahead or may be i am still struck in the waves of loneliness when the world around me moved ahead.. 15 weeks of foundation course has entered into its penultimate week and finally i got some time to do something which doesn't carry weightage in the Director's Assessment here @ academy i.e., blogging.. :D

FC is exciting, enthralling, busy busy, hectic n very interesting indeed ! If i have to blog, each day of FC would become 4 5 blog entries..So, let me just briefly Look back at my past 3months here and encapsulate it in this small post. I remember the first day when i first entered into this academy, the Great Lal Bahadur Shastri National Academy for Administration, Mussorie. It was a feeling of satisfaction, pride, happiness and above all a sense of Responsibility when i was walking into the gate. Years of Hardwork earned an entry ticket into this prestigious Institute. I was totally blank about what was gonna come in the coming 3months. Now, at almost the "Curtains down" stage of FC, there is sense of satisfaction within me.

Tuesday, 14 July 2015

Marks Marks Marks..... Civil Services 2014...

Very happy with my Prelims score as well as Exceptional Interview score.... Could have done lot lot better in Mains, but as alwayz UPSC is the King-maker or Breaker...In any case, love my interview marks...They restore my faith in UPSC,that it is not totally Unpredicatable as such...Atleast in interview.....thanx sir...   :)



Friday, 3 July 2015

What does "Happiness" Mean to me......

Probably the best time to write about happiness is when you are sad. I have been thinking about writing my thoughts over Happiness from the time i came across this Surprize question of "What does happiness means to you" in Civil Services Ethics paper of 2014. After Going Up n Down swings of happiness n sadness in the past few years, i feel myself better placed to pour out my thoughts on this.


Many philosophers have written many ideas about how to be happy in one's life. I am no philosopher, hence gonna put it in very naive layman's language. 

Happiness can be defined as Material, Physical, Mental, Healthy, Pshycological well being of a human being. But even if we have all these things, still we can be unhappy. To me Happiness is personal. Happiness is an Individual's right. Everyone of us has the right to be Happy. Every human being born is destined to die one day n between this Birth n Death, there lies a phase where we keep going through plethora of emotions ranging from pride to pain to sad to happy. All these emotions define a human lifecycle. But Everyone wants to be happy in their lives. So how do we quantify this happiness? When can we be happy? When can we be sad? What defines our happiness? Let me get into my thoughts on this.


Happiness according to me is of two broad catogories. 

Temporary Instant Spike Happiness which ups ur mood with a sudden thrust. A movie, a coffee with a friend, a surprize birthday party, a cool candle-light dinner etc etc all come under this category. This happiness is temporary in a sense that its impact is instantaneous and u will return to normal as soon as the euphoria around it is over. Yes, you do remember those memories, but on a large scale of life, these are quite dwarf.

Thursday, 4 June 2015

The Final Lap.... to my Dream Destination... LBSNAA... :)

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Name: Naga Sathish Gidijala
Board : Chattar Singh sir
Optional : Geography
Hobbies  : Watching movies and Cricket, Internet browsing,  Watching news in TV.
Attempt :  3rd
Qualification: MTech CSE  IIT Roorkee, BTech ECE, Andhra University.
Present Job : Jobless..hehe... left my job an year back in Feb 2013
Past Jobs: Software Engineer, Cisco Systems, Bangalore - 2.5yrs exp
                   Software Engineer, Informatica Business Solutions, Bangalore - 1 year exp
Achievements : Best Student in college, ISTE 
                            Best boy in School
                            Rashtrabhasha Visharad Degree from Dakshin Bharat Hindi Prachar Sabha
From : Vijayawada, Andhra Pradesh
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Straight into Transcript..........

Tuesday, 7 April 2015

Memoirs of my IIT r still fresh in the air.....

While i was going through some random stuff at midnight 3, i suddenly came across my testimonials which i got from some of my closest friends at IIT Roorkee.. Life has moved on a lot.. Its been 5years since we left the campus..we guys cudn't meet atleast once during these years...  but while i recap my days at iit, it feels 2yrs were like 2seconds... I never knew when they came and when they went... but the feel of IIT is something i cherish the most for the rest of my life.. It can never leave me...

Ever since i left IIT, my life just got struck in civils preparation...I have been running all along...Atleast now i got some time to Pause a little and look back at my life...So... Here are my Testimonials from few of my special friends...ThanQ doston... miss you...

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Bharat Pardeshi says:

Saturday, 14 March 2015

Run Raja Runnn... Walk Walk...Walk in the Park...

Again something related to IFS-2014.... My walking test...

Distance: 25kms... Time Limit: 4 hours...  Location : Delhi Zoological Park... Weather : Foggy February Winter... Mood : Upbeat after a Good Interview :D

This is one test which i was really worried about..more than the interview ! We are supposed to walk 25kms (14km for girls )within 4hrs with all those Animals looking at us weirdly... :'( 

The date of Walking Test was 2days after interview with Medicals@safdarganj in the middle. So on this chilly foggy Feb morning i reached Delhi zoo after Taxiforsure made sure that i book another cab by cancelling at last minute. We were asked to be there by 6:45 AM. Sun was not yet out, mist was not yet clear, n our cab driver dint know where or what was this Zoo... A passerby translated Zoo as "Chidiyaghar" and then his spark lit... Anywayz we reached there on time and after initial docs stuff, we were ready to walk...get...set... goooo....

Tuesday, 10 March 2015

CAPF (ACs) 2014 Marksheet

Skipped PET for this as it clashed with my IFoS mains. With jus 56 marks below final cutoffs and skipping 150 marks interview, i probably missed an AIR here..But im happy that i gave precedence to IFoS and it did work well 4 me...


Wednesday, 4 March 2015

IFoS - Civil Services dilemma... Dissolved, Decoded n Decimated...(Part-2)

So, after having dealt with the necessity to apply for IFoS along with Civils during prelims, let me get into my strategy in cracking IFS. Before i proceed any further let me tell you the condition i was in when i decided to give IFS mains.
- I cleared IFS prelims cutoffs, mains is good 2 months away
- I already had indepth knowledge of Geography optional as this is my 3rd attempt at Civils Mains.
- I absolutely had no idea of either Agriculture or Geology.
- I had relatively good free time as i left job (Very important factor)
- I had enough knowledge about current happenings / major issues in News .
- I knew that majority of those who cleared IFS cutoffs would be in same situation as mine.

The reason i am saying these things is because you might be at a different stage of preparation compared to me and hence can compare the above parameters with yours.

I had a very clear strategy that i shouldn't overdo IFS prep as this will have direct impact on my Civils mains. At the same time, i shouldn't ignore IFS mains as its relatively easier competition-wise as of now. Catch-22.. Isn't it? Ultimately I shouldn't end up as Jack of all trades and remaining without a rank anywhere. So i had to plan very carefully about what to study and what to absolutely ignore for IFS mains.

If you are a genuine IFS aspirant, Prelims is the toughest thing to crack. Mains becomes little easy as the competition dynamics have totally changed. But if you are a civils aspirant but also wanna give a shot at IFS mains, u shud give only that much time that it deserves. You are aiming at 1200 seats of Civils and only 85 seats of IFS... That simply means.. your time division to balance should be lesser than even 1:12 ratio. i.e., in 13hours, logically you should spare only 1hr for IFS and not more than that, lest ur civils will take a hit. :) I know its a silly calculation, but ignore this and u are gone.. :D

So with this background, i decided to go through Syllabus of Agri n Geology, Old papers of last 3 4 years and most importantly last year marksheets of toppers given in Mrunal. After some analysis i understood few facts from those marklists. They are
- To top, all you need is ~300/800 in 2 optionals and ~250/600 in English n GK.
- The questions in optionals are straight-forward and some times even repetitive.
- I should maximize my score in English/GK n Interview.
- Optionals obviously are my weak-links. I should ensure that in optionals i screw no paper. Average performance in optionals should get me close to 300/800 in optionals.

n Thus i started my prep.......Here is my strategy for all papers

General English :
         Last year papers are the key here. This is my strength area and i should excel spectacularly and score heavily. My Civils prep would be sufficient here, but i should take extra care to excel when i write this exam on that specific day. So i was very conscious of doing my best in this paper. I wrote essay and report writing which account for half of the marks almost in the most impressive manner which i could. Grammer part i dint prepare specifically. Hence, its usual thing for all who are ok with fundamentals of English. I got 159/300 in this paper which i suppose is the top mark this year in this paper. So for all you Not-So-Genuine IFS aspirants, this is the Strength area. Nail it absolutely. 

General Studies :
        Again my strength area. UPSC changed IFS GS paper pattern this year and gave 24x12.5marks format unlike last year which had 1 markers, 8 markers etc.,. Pretty much similar to Civils mains GS papers. So again, no spl prep required. Unlike civils, questions here are straight. They asked explain Arab-Palestine issue, Explain Digital India Programme sort of questions which are way too straight-forward. Hence do you best and finish the paper. UPSC screwed this paper in marking this year. Last yr toppers had even 140/300 marks in this paper. My target was 120 minimum. This year top score itself is around 103/300. I got 86 which is fine for me. If upsc screws the marking, every other person suffers. Hence Zero-sum game. So again.. Nail this paper. :)

Agriculture - 1
        This is your GS-3 paper in Civil Services. Nothing special in it. Syllabus-wise or Exam wise. So do your Ramesh singh's, Economic Surveys, 12th Plan docs, Newspaper, Dutt n Sundarams etc., No special prep needed. Totally integrated with your Civils Mains again. So Nail this too.... 
I attempted around 180-190 in this paper and still managed only 75. A 90s score would have been good, but hello...this is UPSC.. :P

Agriculture - 2
        Now this is the toughest of them all for me. This paper is pure Botany stuff.  Remember Cell Theory? Mitosis, Meoisis, Reproduction, Osmosis, Photosynthesis, Calvin Cycle etc etc which u studied long long long back? This to me was the weakest paper. But soon after a week's prep i absolutely loved this paper. I prepared in a very limited way choosing topic which are repetitive in past papers and also interesting for me. 
Source i used here is only R.Gupta's Agriculture guide. There are better books like "Introduction to Agriculture" by A.K.Vyas. It is important to read solved answers of R.Gupta's book.
    
         One problem is with the terminology. Being a non-botany student it was very tough for 3 4 days to even pick the complicated technical terminology used in the book. I had to repeatedly read each line 3 4 times to understand what it means. In addition to this book, I used Biology Youtube 3D videos. These are just exceptional. I loaded them on my mobile and kept on watching them so many times. Find the below link and watch all related videos in that biology channel. You ll love them and this botany stuff interested me alot. :D


A note on Agriculture here. I found Agri to be a better optional in Civils too, if u are interested in it. UPSC still asking very straight and fundamental questions in this particular Optional and i was really amazed even at 2014 Civils agri papers. How on earth you screw optionals like Pub-Ad, Geo n Psycho with irrational question papers and still give cherries in optionals like Agri. May be something to do with popularity and all. But after all we need marks to become IAS.. No one cares if its Agri or Pub-ad after you get selected.. So if any newbie is reading this post, i suggest going for Agri-like optionals unlike Pub-Ad. 

I attempted around 150 in this paper and got a decent 75.

So the sources are R.Gupta's book and Youtube channel for me. If you want indepth, Some guy in Mrunal's interviews gave full book sources. You may go through them. But as i told earlier, you only have to give IFS that much that it deserves. Dont over do this and pick books only if u clear IFS prelims cutoffs. Studying IFS optionals even before clearing prelims makes no sense to me. Atleast for the next 3 4 years, this logic holds true according to me. Moving on....


Geology -1
Now Geology is again a popular optional. Usually for those who dont have common optional in Civils and IFS mains, Geology+Agri or Geology+Forestry is the combo. Agri+Forestry is not allowed by UPSC. This year Geology papers were very tough. Paper-1 was manageable to a certain extent, but paper-2 is out of the world. Geology-1 itself had questions from entire geology syllabus. In break, i was wondering what would they ask in paper-2 as they already asked everything in paper-1 itself and as expected paper-2 bombed. :D

Anywayz, Geology-1 has half of its syllabus totally overlapping with Geography's Geomorphology. Infact you need to read Geomorphology little indepth for Geology. The book i used for this is the Physical Geography by Savindra Singh. Its ultimate source for it. (Forgive me, i never read NCERTs for Civils/IFS, i never liked them somehow, i feel upsc now crossed NCERT levels long back)
             
The other book which covers majority of syllabus is of K.M.Bangar. Previous papers, coupled with Bangar, Savindra Singh and Internet should give you enough knowledege in this paper to attempt almost 170-180 unless UPSC decides to screw. I attempted around 140 and got 68 in this paper. A decent one.

Geology-2
            
Well the lesser i say about this, the better. This paper was a disaster for everyone this year. As i said, UPSC asked whole syllabus in paper-1 itself and this paper was so tough that we just couldn't do anything in exam hall. I attempted around 100 marks, but i wasn't sure of even 30 marks in this paper. After attempting 100marks, i myself felt bored to write more crap. So, this also happens in upsc and you must be prepared... half of the time in the exam hall, all of us were just sleeping or laughing looking at eachother's faces. :D
Ultimately UPSC upscaled marks n many got very good marks. I got 55 in this paper. see.. upsc is not always a villian.. Cutie upsc also upscales for u sometimes... :)

 Sources for this paper are again internet and Bangar. I love those small anthropods called trilobites. There is a whole website dedicated to these trilobites. Read about them. Compile some notes. A sure shot question every year on these Not-So-Beautiful bugs... :D

So this finishes my IFS mains journey. My aim was to get 550 in mains (sure shot call for interview) and then score big in interview.  As Geology-2 was tougher, i was expecting around 520-530 kinda marks. I got 518 in mains and an interview call.

             From here on... Rock that interview and you are an IFS officer... After getting into IFS, Clearing civils actually becomes an option rather than a necessity. Being Geology, Geography and Agriculture guy with CSE n ECE backgrounds in IIT (lol), i love IFS more than anyother service and im very excited in clearing it. Eventhough IAS remains dream for many, i personally love the job profile of IFS as i will be more close to nature.  So now, IAS/IPS only if i get good cadre n all, else i am going into the jungles like an Aslan searching for my future... No more attempts at UPSC in near future.... upphh..exasperated... 

 n thus my Jungle Story Begins........ :)


oh wait... So how many days intoto i studied for this IFS mains exam specifically? It's around 20 days.
I read botany part of Agri and some tough area's of Geology for 5 days about 1 n half month before IFS mains (so that i dont feel them new when i read them jus before mains) and the left them and went ahead with my civils prep. Whenever i get bored of Geography or civils things, i opened Geology/Agri books or saw those youtube videos. n i studied about 10days seriously before IFS mains again mixing it up with civils prep. It's all about how u prioritize and then repriortize and again do the same.. UPSC prep makes us like Self-correcting robots always. We need to outsmart upsc and upsc inturn outsmarts us. The day u win over UPSC , u get that ticket to enter LBSNAA,Mussorie.. Cheers





Saturday, 28 February 2015

IFoS - Civil Services dilemma... Dissolved, Decoded n Decimated...(Part-1)

This article is exclusively aimed at IFoS aspirants. This will be helpful to those who wish to crack IFS along with their civils prep, in general and those who don't have common optional in the two mains, in particular. I have few Disclamers to make before i proceed.
- My Strategy is temperory in nature and is not written in wall. UPSC is evolving every 1gle day.
- These are purely my personal thots and you may choose to ignore them partially or totally.
- This article can be riduculously long. Hence breaking it into 2 parts.

So, before i proceed with my optional strategy for Agriculture n Geology, i wish to clear some misconceptions abt IFS. Back in 2013, i held these misconceptions that 
- UPSC did injustice by merging IFS with Civils Pre.
- I shouldnot give IFS as i will be doing injustice to Genuine IFS aspirants.
- I am not interested in Forests.
- I can't study new optionals exclusively for IFS.

Thursday, 26 February 2015

My IFS Marklist.... Wow i love my Interview n English marks... :D

Thank You Alka mam for that Wonderful Interview Score. If it weren't 200+, it would have become really difficult for me to figure it out on Y i got lesser.... My strategy worked... :-) Decoding a word or two about UPSC....


 

P.S.  Will be sharing my overall strategy for IFoS soon.

Thursday, 19 February 2015

Entering the Jungles...Preface of my Jungle book... Its time for IFoS Interview 2014....

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Name: Naga Sathish Gidijala
Board : Alka Sirohi mam
Optionals : Agriculture and Geology
Civils Optional : Geography
Hobbies  : Watching movies and Cricket, Internet browsing,  Watching news channels in TV.
Attempt : 1 for IFoS, 3 for Civils mains
Qualification: MTech CSE  IIT Roorkee, BTech ECE, Andhra University.
Present Job : Jobless..hehe... left my job an year back in Feb 2013
Past Jobs: Software Engineer, Cisco Systems, Bangalore - 2.5yrs exp
                   Software Engineer, Informatica Business Solutions, Bangalore - 1 year exp
Achievements : Best Student in college, ISTE 
                            Best boy in School
                            Rashtrabhasha Visharad Degree from Dakshin Bharat Hindi Prachar Sabha
From : Vijayawada, Andhra Pradesh
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                  So again i got Alka mam board for IFoS interview. In 2012 civils interview, she terrorized me with a pressure cooker types interview. This time i was better prepared to face her. My knowledge base back then was very limited as it was my very first attempt at Civils. This time i was more matured in my preparation. I knew anything could be asked and all i had to is to maintain my composure. There was a sense of Calmness within me and confidence too, instead of usual nerves. Facing interview 2nd time makes u lot more relaxed as you know what is gonna come. I was prepared for a Rapid fire GK round as soon as i learnt that its gonna be Alka mam's board. However, this time board was too cordial and the discussion was more like a panel discussion unlike last time when it was a quiz.
           

"Mine eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the Lord"

So before my memory fades, let me recapitulate my tryst with IFoS Exam 2014.

I never knew abt IFS before n how to enter into it. It all started when Civils n IFS prelims got merged in 2013. I dint even opt for IFS in 2013 simply becoz i was ignorant. I totally lived in the darkness. But goodness me, the failure in Mains 2013 opened my eyes. I felt it to be disastrous to base all my future on 1 single exam that is Civil Services. Soon i decided not to skip other exams... keep attempting them but the ultimate Goal is the IAS...

In the process, i applied for Bank POs(Just to get CSAT practise), CAPF (PET clashed with IFS mains, hence left it), RBI Grade B(again for apti practise) and ultimately Indian Forest Services. IFoS never loomed large even now coz of my ignorance. Still it was just one of those exams which gives me practise for civils. But how ignorant i was....I was just underestimating an All India Service just because it was not included in Civil Services Exam..

Anywayz, with my civils prelims going pretty well, i was confident of clearing IFS cutoffs too, but the tragedy was i was not even sure of which optionals i opted for IFS mains. How idiotic i was!!! The day the Civils prelims results came, i was very relaxed as i was confident. But,Once i knew i cleared IFS cutoffs too, i was determined to make it count. That is when i started digging into "What is this IFS?" and to my surprize i actually was totally ignorant in estimating its status. Being a Geography student, i found IFS to be a more apt job for me, than lets say IRS or IRTS. I love nature, environment and visiting places & IFS suits me lot better.

I chose Agriculture and Geology as my optionals. Geology was my default optional coz of its overlap with Geography. I was confused between Agriculture and Forestry, but finally went with Agri as i found it to be more interesting.

And then started my journey of preparing for both Civils Mains(9 papers) n IFS Mains(6 papers)... The gap between these two mains was hardly 10days. Civils syllabus was mammoth. I was reading two new subjects Agri n Geology which are noway connected to civils. I was feeling like "What the hell am i doing?","What junk am i reading?" "Do i need to know how plants breath, eat n drink?" "Am i compromizing with my civils mains and unnecessarily wasting time on IFS which is tough to clear for a CS grad like me?" n so so many questions abt IFS mains. But i was determined to clear IFS or atleast make the oppurtunity count. Many die for a rank 4m UPSC n i shudn't be taking this oppurtunity litely. Every mark was crucial and i wanted to give my best.

Moreover my IFS mains centre was Hyderabad and i live in Bangalore. I had to go to Hyd by night train, get down at mrng 6, write the exams without even bath and come back and catch the train at evenin 7 back to bangalore. I had to do like this 2 times as there was gap between exams.  What if the train is late? What if i dont perform due to journey lag? What if i screw my civils which is just 10days away? So many doubts hovering in my mind. But I always knew that i was a tough guy to beat...I cleared IFS Mains..:)


in Between, i got a Research Scientist post in Central Research Labs, Bharat Electronics Ltd., Joined there for few days and quit immediately after getting IFS interview dates. i worked there for 13 days  n it took guts to quit so fast !!!  People scratched their heads as to Y any1 quits a Gazetted Govt job in 13 days !!!! My mom was again crying by repeatedly telling me that i was screwing my life wantedly....but i knew my destiny. I got interview call 4m UPSC which is a rare chance...I am going to enter into that UPSC building after 2 full years n This is the Moment n if not now, its never... Only i knew what i was doing... Rest of the world showed pity on me, scolded me, suggested me and ordered me... They all did out of the care they have in my future...
But the Future is not decided by the emotions but by the bold audacious decisions....

n Today I am an Indian Forest Services Officer with AIR 38!!!
Thankyou Everyone for the love you have showered on me... I truely cherish these moments n this journey... :D

P.S. Will tell abt my Interview n Mains strategy in the coming posts.. cheers.. :)

Saturday, 15 March 2014

Did i miss my train...Altogether???

2day i missed my train first time in life by 5 mins. I ran frantically from bus stand to Bangalore railway station with luggage.. My heart was racing at double the speed.. i was sweating like mad.. i desperately wanted to catch the train.. but it left the station by the time i reached platform.. i felt helpless..frustrated...angry upon myself... the same kind of helplessness which i felt when my state got bifurcated against our wishes....which i felt when i failed to clear UPSC mains in 2nd attempt.... which i felt when i was forced by situations to resign my job..which i felt when i read the problems of my country in books... I am devastated.... I wanna cry like hell.. i wanna smash someones face with my fist.. if not some1's, atleast mine in mirror... This is such a pathetic situation to be in..

No-one understands me. The failure in mains is something which i am still not able to come to terms with. Perceptibly i did no mistake. I tried my level best.. i gave my 100%.. but upsc is so unpredictable that it leaves u with surprizes. Well.. i was always ready for such a  surprize. But people around me started feeling bad more than what i feel... My mom wants me to rejoin job, as she could get me married to a good girl. Only Employed guys get good matches.. She isn't proud of the fact that Her son is preparing for the toughest exam of the country.. She feels that she gave me enough time..i.e., 2yrs... My dad n mom want me to go back2 earning phase of life n settle down like every other human being... We take Birth- We earn - We marry - We get children - We retire n then We die... this is not the life i want to lead... If every1 follows the same lifestyle, there wouldn't have been great leaders, poets, cricketers etc etc in our society..All i need is time... that too my time.. I donno why people are so emotionally attached to MY DAMN TIME ! this is once in a lifetime oppurtunity for me.. I myt fail in all my attempts, still i wanna give my 100% and no1 understands dat thing.

I just want a break from these relationships around me. I need absolutely no disturbance. I love you all.. but i love my goals n ambitions too... I can't sacrifice my goals, to satisfy your needs... This myt seem to be a monologue of a frustrated failed upsc candidate..well, i dont mind to be called like dat... Afterall, thats your perception.. I am not gonna go down,without putting up a fight...im gonna take upsc headon n even if fail, i consider it to be the failure of UPSC which missed me. Only "I" am the best friend of Myself. Cheers Sathish !!!






Monday, 12 August 2013

Wits of Girls.... an Experience of mine Yesterday (11-Aug 2013)

A sign board in Brand Factory Reads
Buy 1 Get 20% off
Buy 2 Get 30% off

Girl 1 : Idea, Lets bill 2 items separately, then we will get 20%+20% = 40% off..   
Me : hehehhee.. OMG... n i told d same to other girl..
Girl 2 : Haan na.. Idea bahot accha hai... khareed the na separately... 
Me : hey bhagwaaaaan.....slept in utter disbelief... i woke up in d mrng n told the whole thing to Mom
Mom : Yeah, they were right, we could have got 40% off, we missed it.........
Me:    Updated Status on FB out of Helplessness..... Stilll...
 feeling loved

Tuesday, 21 May 2013

& the New Year Begins

There is something special about these so called UPSC aspirants! They are special, psychic, irritated, over-knowledgeble, hardworking, strategists, variety, and ultimately screwed up ! For the entire world, Old year ends on Dec 31st and new year begins on 1st Jan. But for this variety species, of which i am a part of, ironically, Old year end when "Prev year marks are displayed" and New Year begins when "the Next Prelims starts" ! So, Happy new year folks and all the best for Prelims..

Before i sign off my 2012 attempt, my first one, I want to first of all thank Alka Sirohi mam for giving me 189 in interview. She tried her best to put me in the list. But the lethal combo of Geo n PubAd proved decisive and damaging. One final goodbye to Pub-Ad, subjct i loved so much, read so vast, written so well, and ended up getting so less ! 59+89 = 148 out of 600 is disapointing, but thank god i dint get Single digits as some of my fellow aspirants got unfortunately. That would have been depressing. I have so many positives to take out of previous year's attempt. But dear friends, without denying Hardwork, Strategy, Planning blah blah.. still you need that bit of LUCK.. of say some 50% :) to clear this civils. So apart from studying, keep your prayers floating in all temples all round the year.. We never know, which god comes to our help. :)

Here are my mains marks...

Saturday, 13 April 2013

My Purpose-FULL Dilli Trip

Ufff... finally finally my trip here in delhi is about to end... Its been hectic, exciting, interesting, adventurous, so on so so on... Its hectic coz of study i had to do along with planning of my stay and travelling in trains.. Exciting coz i am gonna enter into millions of people's dream house, Dholpur House.. Interesting coz some1 is for the first time, going to judge my personality here... adventurous coz i came alone.. all alone.. all the time alone... :D But i should say i am going back from delhi today with lots of satisfaction.. Marks ka tho chodo yaar.. bas majaa aa gaya akele akele dilli ghoomne mein.. 

In this post i am not gonna talk about the Q & A of my interview... So Aspirants plz excuse me.. i know i am hopeless.. :P 

So i boarded Bangalore-Delhi Rajdhani....4days b4 my scheduled interview... 36hrs of Journey... I was impressed by rajdhani service.. This was for the first time i was travelling by it and infact surprized at the hospitality shown by Indian Railways.. They kept feeding with variety of items.. loved it... n arrived in Delhi on 9th morning... My interview was on 11th.... 

Checked-in in this hotel "The Spot" in paharganj.. Expecting it to be very worse, but found it decent enuf.. Delhi is a wonderful place and paharganj seems to be the most happening... With so many foreigners from chinese to english to french, its colorful n buzzing place.. ;)  Next two day would be the as usual  MY MAD days for me... Mad coz.. ever since this interview date was announced some 15days back, i was behaving weird like a mad fellow... Thinking in air, Talking to myself, Looking into vaccum, Reading all junk, ignoring people around me etc etc.,  hehe.. Some even thought i started ignoring them as a whole.. as i stopped receiving calls... but i never wanted to come out of this MAD MOOD ever since i got that 11th as my D-day... Breaking hearts is a part n parcel of my story...;)

After somehow killing these 2 days in my hotel room... Finally THE 11th arrived... Its Ugadi day.. very very auspicious day... I felt as if god was with me.... Kept alarm for 6:30.. but woke up at 5:30 itself... I was feeling kinda helplessness to even study.. In interview, they can ask anything within the Universe or even outside it... So switched on TV and kept on flipping channels till my alarm hit that 6:30... :D and then i started getting ready...  This is the first time i took care of my looks so much.. Decent Dress, Tie, Gel-ed up hair, Clean shave, new new shoes.. wow.. Next time i get ready like this would be on my Marriage Day only.. hehehe... aaah.. im loving myself... I turned out to be a IAS look-alike at the least.. :P Infact, Even my interview board couldn't believe that actually i look so different.. :P

After somehow killing time upto 11'o clock started off for my interview.... took metro.. Delhi Metro is all the same from the day i visited it last 3yrs back... With lots of delhites using metro.. its conjected, cramped and reminds us of India's population problems for a moment but the maintainance is awesome still... After changing 3lines.. Blue, Yellow and Violet... finally reached Khan market metro... UPSC is some 500mtr walk from here and strolled all alone as i reached there by 12 itelf....

The Sight of UPSC

A small walk and on the other side of the road,  i could see the Union Public Service Commission boards on the building walls...WOW.. Its probably the most wonderful moment of my life till now...I felt inspiring, spell-bound and my happiness had no boundaries.. This is THE place where so many people dream of coming...Wall Boards of UPSC were written in typical govt style.. but man.. i heard so much about this building from so many people... Its like a temple for lakhs of students and their parents....Many many IAS/IPS officers were interviewed here and then they went on to architect India's future.... I never started civils preparation with that great great urge to become IAS, i never pasted Mussorie pics or inspiring quotes in my room, i never listened to or believed those people who said "You will become IAS" unnecessarily even without me asking for it, I was never so so desperate like many... but  I felt so proud of having reached this far.. This was the moment of Joy... I never knew what was going to happen inside that building in the next half day.. but the very sight of UPSC made me ecstatic...My hardwork for the last 2yrs to reach this building was running infront of my mind like that Old-film wala flashbacks....I immediately picked up my phone and called home... My mom n dad went to temple as it was ugaadi.. shared my happiness with my Bro..but he had no idea how happy n proud i was at that moment....It's like on the top of the mooon.....This i felt for the second time in my life.. First was when i got admitted into IITR...I still cherish that moment...

I could see some anxious people waiting there... Parents were more anxious than students... and 1 Sir was giving lecture on what to say in interview and what is Rule of Law and what are constitutional provisions etc etc.. people were anxiously discussing... but i was just cherishing the whole atmosphere and the moments that were going on then...smiling to myself.. and then 1 Sikh sir intervined in my solitude... he asked me my details... he checked if i had come alone to interview.. i said -Yes.. then he checked if i had come alone to Delhi itself.. i again said -Yes... he was amazed and asked.. "kyaa aapke parents nahi aaye aapke saat.. kamaal ho yaar.. ias interview dene akele aagaye ho utne door se... " hehehee.... i always went alone to most important events of my life like interviews for IIT admissions, joining IIT, Giving job interviews, Joining in Job,  coz i never want any1 disturbing my MOOD...not even my parents.... and next i met 1 more senior pro guy.. i donno how many attempts he gave.. he came to me n asked  First attempt hai kya? i said Yes... then he said.. "thoda relax ho jaaoo bhai.... tum bahut nervous dikh rahe ho " ( i was amazed by his assessment as i was feeling confidence but he said nervousness)... and 1 more guy was there with hindu..i took Hindu from him n just read editorials n was giving it back 2 him... i told him that anyhow Newspaper would be there inside.. but he insisted "BHAI, Yehi padlo.. andhar newspaper nahi milega..." but i knew that newspapers wud be there inside as i read in some prev interview transcripts.. i told him that.. but he insisted again "BHAI, MUZE PATA HAI.. Nahi Rahenge.. mai expiernced hun..."  :-o..... I felt as if i was the only inexperienced guy there.. :(  but anyhow clock ticked fast.. n it was 1o clock.. After some initial checking... we were allowed inside... :D

Finalllllyy... I stepped into THE BUILDING.... I was so so happy n it was a dream coming true.............. Whatever myt be my result this year... but i loved this experience.....Will share my interview experience in my next post may be... :)






Friday, 12 April 2013

My UPSC Interview 11/4/2013 which brot me back to Blogging after 2 long years !!!

I Am writing Only Questions here, so that they can be useful for others. Will write my answers and overall experience in sometime. Overall a good feel interview !


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Name: Naga Sathish
Board : Alka Sirohi mam
Optionals : Geography and Public Administration
Hobbies  : Watching movies and Cricket, Internet browsing, Reading Newspaper
Attempt : 1
Qualification: MTech CSE  IIT Roorkee
Present Job : Software Engineer, Cisco Systems, Bangalore
From : Vijayawada, Andhra Pradesh


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CP : So you watch cricket.. Tell 5 Cricketers who became members of Parliament?
CP: Told 3.. But Gimme one more name please…Clue: his Father is a former CM (I was clueless even then)
CP: Kirti Azad. Heard of him?

Passed on to M1
M1 : Sathish People say “Justice delayed is Justice Denied”. Do you agree with it? What’s your opinion on it?
M1: What can be done to speed up our justice delivery system?
M1: There are lots of Adjournments of court cases… How to reduce them?
CP: There is no provision of Only 3 Adjournments anywhere. It is a recommendation of some committee. (as in my answer I said there is some provision somewhere)
M1: How the judge of high court appointed? (I blundered here, I forgot answer for this infact but finally gave it)
M1: Is there any collegium system?
M1: What changes govt. is trying to bring now to this system?
M1: You Studied in IIT Roorkee. It had some other name in the past. Do you know it?
M1 : Who is James Thomason?
M1: When is IITR established and what is the purpose of establishing it only in Roorkee and not in Allahabad or somewhere else?
M1 : You watch cricket. Can you tell me the weight of a cricket ball? (No Way i can ! :D )
M1: which newspaper do you read?
M1: Who is the editor of Hindu?

Passes on to M2.
M2: Guntur is very closer to Vijayawada. Are they twin cities?
M2: You are from Vijayawada. There are so many coaching centers for +2 in Vijayawada. Why is it so?
 M2: Don’t you think syllabus in Govt colleges is good enough to crack IIT-JEE? Isn’t the syllabus same for +2 and JEE?
M2 : If JEE questions are tough and if they are asking something that is beyond the syllabus of +2, then there is something wrong with the curriculum/syllabus of JEE? Don’t you think so?
M2: Andhra Pradesh has lot of problems with Naxals. What is naxalism
M2: If you are saying this to be Socio-Economic problem then, Why this problem is not there in Karnataka or somewhere else(As here also many socio-economic problems are there ) and only present in Andhra Orissa etc?
M2: Don’t you think Govt needs to do more here? (Before he completed this question, CP passed it to next member)

Passes on to M3. He hampered my confidence by asking many memory based ones
M3: Have you heard of K-G basin? What is it?
M3: Why is nanotechnology getting so much prominence?
M3: What is the fastest super-computer you are aware of?
M3: Not just in India Sathish. Think global. Do you know the fastest in the world?
M3: How do you measure the speed of SuperComputers?
M3: Have you heard of FLOPS? What is a FLOP?
M3: Do you think with nano size experiments, we can change the fundamental properties of the materials? (He was going indepth into this, i had to say couple of I donno's here )
M3: Have you heard of Visakha Case ? (yes, sexual harassment one)
M3: Can you tell specific guidelines given in that judgement ? ( I donno)
M3: What is IISER? (Donno :( )
M3: So many memory based questions here….I never heard them before also… around 4 or 5 of them.. for all I said I Donno
From here again i could answer few satisfactorily.
M3: Have you heard of Kuchipudi village? Where is it?
M3: Can you name some of the dancers of kuchipudi?
M3: There is a specific character which they depict for which these are famous. Do you know that character?
M3: Is there any award or something associated with kuchipudi?
M3: I was expecting  if something like PadmaBhushan or PadmaVibhushan is awarded to any of these dancers. Do you know?
M3: Who is the best fielder in present cricket team?
M3: Is jadeja not a good fielder?
M3: Do you know where Suresh Raina is from? (Again forgot :( )

Was feeling bit low after M3's grilling.. but M4 kinda rescued before Alka mam drowned my ship again !
Passes on to M4
M4: Why IIT Roorkee was established in roorkee only (Yes repeated same question)
M4: What is the year of establishment of IIT Roorkee?
M4: Do you know that when upper ganga canal was built, people refused to drink/irrigate land with that water? (Ooh.. i donno this)
M4: So, you are from Vijayawada which is in Guntur district right?
M4: Then what is the hq of Krishna district?
M4: This area is very close to Telangana region. Can you tell me about the Geography of the region? (I dint understand what he was trying to ask me )
M4:  What are the major products of Krishna District? (I told agricultural products, he said something something about krishna district, hez very old, and after telling whole story he said do you know? :-o i thot WHAT !!! Apparently he was asking question, but i felt it to be like a story ! ).
M4: It is said that Krishna District provides food to all southern states like Tamilnadu, Karnataka and even to Maharashtra. Do you know why?
M4: Tell about your district geography first, then Andhra Pradesh geography. (Before i answer this question fully, moved on to next question)
M4: You also watch movies. According to you who is the best hero in Telugu movie at present?
M4: What is his latest movie?
M4: What does the word “Dookudu” mean?
CP Tookover from here
CP: Can you tell me what is  ISDN? (Donno :( )
CP: Can you tell me the names of TCP/IP Layers?
CP: There is no Session/Presentation layer in TCP/IP Sathish (I corrected myself here, tcp/ip has only 5-layers).
CP: Your interview is over.. ohh wait wait.. last question for you before you go… Gave 1 puzzle to solve. 9 dots in 3x3 matrix. Have to join all of them with 4 lines without lifting the pen. (My mind was already blank.. cudn't think of any logics here)
CP: Ok. Don’t worry. Try after you go back.
CP: Your Interview Over ! Thanks !